A semi-autobiographical account of the author as she experiences abuse, sexual and otherwise, at the hands of her family who is also caught up in a cult. Aiko wished for someone to kill her and the world she lives in. With the Great Hanshin Earthquake, the Aleph doomsday cult, and the Kobe child murders, it seemed like the ends of time was approaching. Unable to dream of "somewhere away from here", all she can do is face her violent life head-on.